Just got back from a missions trip to Australia Thursday! (which is why I’ve been kind of MIA from this blog recently) I’m still processing the trip and everything that happened, but I can definitely say that I’ve returned from this trip a different person than when I left. I feel refreshed and empowered. I have so much clarity about life.
What led to this change? Was it witnessing how God transformed and empowered believers in Australia? Was it experiencing Him using me to bring healing and breakthrough to others? Was it seeing the way my team functioned––each person fulfilling a different role, bringing a different strength to the whole? Was it receiving numerous words of encouragement and affirmation? Was it hearing God say things to me that made me sob, laugh, and tremble with joy?
Yes, it was all these things. But the key was taking hold of the Truth. The truth sets you free.
There was a crucial moment in Sydney when I rose up in the truth of who I am. So much of my life I have lived under the burden of false humility, feeling a need to downplay my strengths, to doubt my abilities, to soften the power of what I carry inside of me. But I’m realizing that no one benefits from that self-deprecation. God isn’t glorified when I hide what I have under a bowl; it is when I rise up and shine in all that He has made me to be that He is honored.
So instead of focusing on everything I lacked: experience, knowledge, giftings, etc, I chose to remember what I have. What qualifies me to be a minister of God? I know Him. I know His voice. And I carry His love inside of me.